spaladida's Journal

2:57pm: Ok. So I was talking to David, and he suddenly shouts out to me, that Jacob is sleeping with this girl Melanie, who is an ex girlfriend of Jacob's friend Ryan. The thing is, this actually does hurt me. I don't know. this thing is, when i talk to Jacob, i feel like he still likes me. I don't know, David was like Jacob's desperate. That's weird to me. I hate that it bothers me, because I had thought that hearing about Jacob doing stuff with otehr girls mwouldnt bother me. i knew it would bother me to hear about him being in a relationship with another girl. but not just having sex. But maybe he is in a relationship with Melanie. I don't think so, just because he said that he thought she was just like Catherine, and he was very happy to get out of the relationship with her. If she's a rebound, then I guess its alright. Honestly, i feel like this is something he's just doing to get over me, but if he gets into a relationship with her, then that would really hurt me. Whatever, I really wish David hadn't told me that, it's something that I REALLY jsut wish I didn't know this, an dI hate that it hurts me. I really want to tlak to oliver right now. but I can't because he's in south carolina with his family. god this is annoying. anyway, i think it's best to keep things the way they are between me and him, and if jacob wants to be fiends or anything, then he ahs to pursue that, i can't be the one to chase him around, that would be too hard. whatever. i need more time to mull things over.